So it's 19 days before Christmas break! And 22 days before Christmas! As of now Teacher Emma said that those who has incomplete requirements would have to go to school on December 22. So as fast as I could I'm submitting them so that I can fetch my mom in the airport and go to my dentist appointment. We have started the gift giving, so I gave one gift to my ''baby'' and he or she didn't see it. Too bad, though I think she won't appreciate it. :p I'm not that excited for Christmas but I want gifts. :D Not materials because some presents that I receive, I tend to give them sometimes. But not the special ones, though I don't know what to give to others. Especially my ''baby'', it's really hard to think a gift for him. :D It's really hard to give a person a gift when you're not close to them or barely not speak to them. I guess next time I should be talkative but I'm not that kind of person.
The upcoming event this December is the Bataan trip. I'm not really that excited compared last year I was really excited. I know it's fun but at the same time tiring because you'll only have less time of sleep. :p Well, I'm the type of person where I have a full time of sleep. Not to offend anyone or something, one more reason why I'm not excited is that too many people are coming. I don't know why but I really don't like places with tons of people. I like Bataan, I really do with all the beautiful stars and the beach. But this year we are going to Bataan with the first years, and the first years are too many. In my case, when there are too plenty of people I get dizzy or headache or something so I tend to hang out with few people. But I will still go to Bataan because this might be my last year in HedCen. :D
The test this trim is harder than last trim. I really think I would fail a lot of subjects this trim because I didn't study well and because of the suspension. I wanted to pass my exams all but I have retest. :( I will be expecting my grades much lower than last trim. The end of this trim I think I'm really giving up, but no! I can do this! :p I just wish to be responsible in studying so that I won't have failing grades. Unless, the exams will get easier or I'm not too lazy to study for them. :D
I really learned a lot from my suspension, except the fact that I was feeling lazy to study again. It's really nice when we need to make a journal, but I was so lazy to do it last time. I really hated it because I will miss a lot of subjects or topics discussed. It's really hard to catch up to those things, especially when I came back from suspension. They were discussing things that I can't understand. Before the suspension, my goal was to have higher grades in second sem than my first sem grades. But I guess it's all ruined because of one BIG mistake.
My greatest fear would be repeating a level or a year. Since I was a child I never wanted to repeat a level or year. Even though my grades are poor or very poor, I don't want to repeat! I don't know why but I would feel ashamed of myself. Maybe, it's because I'm shy of meeting new people or I'm scared if I would repeat in that level if I will be repeated. If this happen, I would not transfer school or maybe I would. I think that's all, so my weakness is repeating a level or year.
Actually I think I have no favorite subject for this year. But last year I have... I like the subject Chemistry but there are points that I don't like it because I can't understand it unless I study. I think I like it because of computing it makes my head pain and some of the subjects with computations to. :D But I like it, even though there's no computation or not. I like the subject where we don't have to think (if there is, I think). I like valed because of the sims, but I don't really have a particular favorite subject. Memorization is hard it's easier to memorize when you understand it, for my sake. In fil/ap and comm arts i like the subjects but some terms are hard to memorize when you don't really understand it. T-T But I'll find a way to understand it :D. I think that's all I have to say.
Maybe 3 week s ago we decided for our class night. We were so ready for it, but it was canceled because of the end of Ramadan. And I felt like, what the? What was the plan for??? But it's alright because if the class night schedule is final we would not plan for it. But the preparations for the food should be planned... :D
My grades from last trim is sooooooooooo super duper low! It's like I want to give up! I will do my best just to improve my grades. In I.T. I FAILED! i just can't believe it! In the past years I always get E or VG, but guess what? I got N! T-T It's because of that trimtest and that quiz, first the trimtest I didn't have the time to review because he didn't say that we are going to have a trimtest! But I think that's partially my fault too, because I need to study too even if it's not midterms, quizzes or what so ever.
For the past months I had been ambivalent. Because my mom said I need to know if I'm going to study in Switzerland next school year or not. As you can see, I got ambivalent I cried for the past few days and get my mind clear these things up. I got my mind made up, so the decision is I'm not going to Switzerland. But still I'm not sure of my decision. Why did I post this? Because I'm getting distracted of my schoolwork just because of this. I think that's all I can think of, that really pisses me of.
If i could be a fairytale character, I would like to be Belle. I would like to be Belle because she would read books that are very long, and I would like to try that sometime. Belle sees the people beyond the physical looks or in other words she's not judging the book by its cover. She's very loving because, she sacrificed of accepting the challenge of helping the beast for her father. I am willing to do that, sacrificing just for the people or person you love. For that kind of situation, I chose Belle.
